DZ princess love&mine, bea.

I sit here watching these kids run so wild and carefree, and can’t help but wonder where did I...

Tue, 28 Aug 2012 20:58:23 -0400

I sit here watching these kids run so wild and carefree, and can’t help but wonder where did I loose myself. How did I get to this point? I use to be so heartless and so proud, where did I go wrong? For

2:34 am

Fri, 10 Aug 2012 03:34:15 -0400

An apology was given to him, and I have yet hear from him. I hate sleepless nights, but most of all I hate sleeping alone…

5:18am

Thu, 09 Aug 2012 06:18:09 -0400

And im wide awake… second fight of the day over the silliest thing. I’m going crazy, I don’t recognize myself. I’m so caught up on this boy I’m loosing my mind and I’m scared shitless. I feel so unappreciated so unwanted, but appreciate and wanted at the same time. Yet, I feel like I’m shaping my life to his but I can’t see where this road leads to. Its been seven months and still no title, but who am I kidding? I fuckin hate titles. It must be the security that it comes along with it… and quite frankly I don’t think I can hold onto nothing these next seven months. Deception? Heck yes. I’m tired of giving it my all and getting no where. But we’ll never know unless we try right? I can’t recall the last time I cried under the moon light. And worse of all is he’s laying asleep next to me… little does he know…

** if you’re out there chasing all your dreams, where does that leave me- Lady A

Me: I think I'm gonna go to sleep now.

Wed, 08 Aug 2012 03:34:23 -0400

Me: I think I'm gonna go to sleep now.
TV: lol but good shows are on.
iPod: sleep? Is that a new app?
Sleeping position: lol I'm not gonna be comfortable.
Mind: what's the meaning of life though?
Temperature: lol it's too hot and too cold.
Noises: oh, you said be louder? Okay.
Body: Lol time for itches.
Person I like: Hey

"It’s easy to be happy when nobody’s giving you advice on how to be happy."

Wed, 08 Aug 2012 03:33:38 -0400

“It’s easy to be happy when nobody’s giving you advice on how to be happy.”

- Tommy Pickles (Rugrats)

MexiComa

Mon, 06 Aug 2012 18:57:21 -0400

A month and a half apart was hard enough on both of us. And just as we we’re enjoying finally spending time together, comes a curve ball out of no where. You in Mexico for the next seven months, how is that even possible?

<3

Thu, 12 Jul 2012 19:52:54 -0400

I hate this feeling …. the feeling of my heart breaking

So far

Wed, 27 Jun 2012 14:34:50 -0400

Summer has been nothing like what I expected. I’ve been sober for once lol but it been a good first three days. Well spent with family getting ready for our big family event. Keeping my guard up…

Days like this is why I hold on

Sat, 23 Jun 2012 03:07:56 -0400

Days like this is why I hold on

EP bound... hopefully.

Thu, 21 Jun 2012 09:38:50 -0400

Three days before I leave this city the hardest three days of all. I’ve never been so afraid of liking someone so much it’s killing me. I can’t believe its gonna be almost 7 months of dating… that’s longer than most of my actual relationships -.- but in him I’ve found the complete opposite of me and I think that’s why we’re working. I don’t wanna leave his arms, cause Lord knows they wrap perfectly around me, twice! I can’t believe I’m going home for summer. The summer of all changes. Where home is no longer home, my daddy is now my father or the man who birthed me, and my family has increased by 1 waddup baby Aaron. I don’t know how to feel towards this child, and I love children. I’m scared shitless not gonna lie. I’ve been so excited to leave, I don’t want to leave now. Who’s gonna put up with my princess tantrums and cravings? Who’s gonna hold me every night… come over.

I dont know what it is about you that I don’t want to...

Thu, 21 Jun 2012 09:36:46 -0400

I dont know what it is about you that I don’t want to leave…

Nightlife.

Fri, 18 May 2012 03:29:27 -0400

I’m so annoyed. I’m not sure why so much it just does. I hate what drugs and alcohol do to some people. I hate that I’ve become so free spirited and how little I care about thing’s that should be my priority … I feel like a boy.

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Wed, 16 May 2012 02:45:52 -0400

fall 2012.

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 15:43:58 -0400

a semester that i fear the most. new school, what’s up utsa. not having my sisters around, my baby liddo patty how am i going to break the news to her? what my life is now is complete opposite of what it will be in four weeks, four weeks. im not ready for this at all.

MUST do.

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 15:25:35 -0400

MUST do.

i cant believe this is the last week i will officially be done...

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 15:20:31 -0400

i cant believe this is the last week i will officially be done being a collegiate cheerleader

6'6...

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 19:45:36 -0400

i dont know what it is about you, i fear what i fear with all. but for some reason i find it hard to let go. i have a million reasons to leave, yet a million and one to stay. maybe it’s the height difference, the fact that by the time you hear me my mind completely changes what it wants tos ay. maybe it’s that you’re just like me sarcastic, whitty, loud,a nd outspoken. you’re not afraid to hurt me, yet the way you hug me is unbarable. maybe it’s the way you dont want me by your side all the time, but the time i am it’s absolutely perfect. maybe it’s teh way that my friends clash perfectly with your friends, and we didnt even have to try. maybe it’s that your from El Paso, or the fact that you love your mom too much to take any girl home. or maybe it’s that i need that manly figure around, but maybe i am doing too much… you’ve got me all tide up and as much as i dont want to accept it i’ve fallen. for a giant -.-

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Wed, 21 Mar 2012 19:38:10 -0400

when you think tim mcgraw i hope you think of me <3

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 19:30:21 -0400

when you think tim mcgraw i hope you think of me <3

please do <3

Wed, 21 Mar 2012 19:28:31 -0400

please do <3